January 30, 2025
Prayers for sixty-seven families who never got to say good-bye
Last night, I made a video recording of a song as I stood next to pictures of my Queen-Mrs. Linda Shephard; after having a very bad day, struggling with her not being here with me.
After finishing posting the video on Facebook, I turned my love music off, turned the television on, and was stunned to see on Fox News, a crash of a jet liner and a military helicopter.
I watched for a few hours, thankfully for hearing that four people were taken from the water, hoping that all would be rescued from the water. Seeing the First Responders preparing to enter the extremely cold water, to rescue people from the crash, it reminded me when at Cleveland EMS, watching Cleveland Fire preparing and entering Lake Erie to do water rescues, when our Squad had been one of the Squads on scene. It was an exciting blessing to see people rescued from Lake Erie.
However, this morning, after turning on Fox News again, my heart was wrenched to hear that there was in fact, no survivors. I have been watching the news all morning, just thinking about the families of the victims of this crash.
Then beloved, my mind went to the powerful words from my Queen, as she spoke of the blessing from our LORD, the Blessing of having time with all of her staff, all of her peers, all of her family, to be blessed to cry with them, as they poured such precious, beautiful, love into my Queen, and the blessing of her pouring her heart into them.
The blessing of watching my Queen, at times just sit and cry at the blessing of time, personal time, precious time, intimate time, with those who she had no idea loved her so much. Remembering my Queen, with tears flowing freely, expressing her heart’s love to our LORD for blessing her with that intimate time with each person, who took the opportunity to express to my Queen, their love, adoration, respect, and guidance, of and from their boss, co-worker, mother, sister, grandmother, friend.
Remembering my Queen expressing her appreciation to our LORD for that blessing, saying, “Babe, most people aren’t blessed with this opportunity to say goodbye, most people don’t get a chance to know who much they are loved.”
Remembering her statements, my mind again, went back to the sixty-seven families of those precious people who they did not have the opportunity to say, I love you; did not get the opportunity to say, I will always love you; did not get the opportunity to say, Please don’t leave; did not get the opportunity to say, Please hold on, they are coming to get you; did not get the opportunity to say, Hold on, I’m coming; did not get the opportunity to pray; LORD, save my wife, my husband, my son, my daughter, my brother, my sister, my friend from this crash.
Then beloved, my heart is trying to express to them, hold on to Father-GOD’S love, through CHRIST JESUS, and hold on to your love for your family member, taken in this horrible accident.
My heart beloved, is tender for those husbands in particular (I am a husband in mourning) of this accident, at the thought of the pain I am struggling with, having had the blessing of my Queen being loved by myself, her family, her work family, and the awesome blessing of lifting my Queen up to my LORD, when she took her last breath, and now those husbands having to travel this same road of mourning, without that blessing. My mind and my heart is unable to comprehend that pain.
This pain challenges me, at times, to even want to breathe, because I am without my Queen, but I am reminded of my LORD’S love to her and to me, then I try to gather words to pray to my LORD for these families, then, I realize that I do not have the words to know what to pray for them.
Yes beloved, I know to pray for peace, pray for comfort, pray for His presence, but I realize, still being on this road of mourning the death of, truly my better half, that I must simply lift them up to my LORD, confessing I am unable to ask my LORD to comfort a pain, the depths I am unaware of.
Therefore, beloved, my prayer for them, is the same prayer, I pray for myself, I ask Father-GOD to hold each one of them, to enclose them in the palms of both His hands, and hold them close to His heart, until they are able to themselves, reach out for His hand also.
Beloved of YESHUA CHRIST JESUS, my prayers have changed completely since my Queen was escorted to heaven by our LORD’S heavenly angels, there are no longer scripted prayers going up, there are no longer any religion at all in my prayers, for my prayers come from a section of my heart, I was unaware was even there, my prayers come from a place of need, a need beloved, I have never had before;
Therefore, I pray for these sixty-seven families, the same prayer I pray for myself;
In JESUS’ Holy precious Name I pray; Father-GOD, I pray they see You, I pray they hear You, I pray they trust You, I pray they come to know You; I pray You keep them in the palms of both Your hands until they do; in the Holy precious Name of our Savior and LORD-YESHUA CHRIST JESUS, through the awesome power of His Holy Spirit. Amen. Amen. Amen.
There have been other people who have passed away since my Queen went to heaven, but these passed at the same time I was holding onto my LORD’S love with one hand, and trying to hold onto the love I have for my Queen, with my other hand; I believe maybe this is why my heart is so tender for these families, they never got an opportunity to say goodbye, that is horrible.
Beloved, saying goodbye—for now—I will see you when I get to heaven, is extremely difficult in itself; having the blessing of saying, I love you, and hearing I love you, back, is immeasurable; not having that opportunity, is unfathomable. Sincerely: Timothy M. Shephard.